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Monday, August 24, 2009
The Flood It
all started with a youth service that felt like victory weekend to me. My tears
fell violently, endlessly it seemed. God reprimanded me lovingly. I was
reminded He's constantly mindful of the nitty details of my circumstances, be
still, He said. Darn. How can I forget? For few days back then I forgot that
He's always in control. He disciplined me real well and just when I thought I
learned all there is to relearn that night, I was proved wrong. Dead wrong. BE
first so you can HAVE Amidst
the flood, Sir Guard still wore his uniform and loyal to his duty, he still
ushered the door. Only that he opened it for floodwater and scaredcats who
desperately ran to avoid the "tsunami" of flood. It didnt even matter
if we were drenched in kneehigh you
can HAVE. It's that principle right in front of my nose. One
foot in front of the other through roaches over bridges... For
more than half of the day, my friend walked barefoot while I used his GBX
slippers, he was convincing that it didn't matter. His assurance of friendship
caused him great discomfort and wasted time yet he stayed. I was sorry I had
been an inconvenience. But then again, I was more than thankful he was there. I
can make this melodramatic. But I'm just at a loss for words.
Looking back, It’s one of those moments, when I felt like I
was facing a turning point in my life, may it be a major one or not. Changes
have to come, and that night I invited them in. I laid them all spread out and
think. I mean, really thought about them. That night, I felt that I faced a
turning point, and that night, the flood made one. It’s a night when
I felt like conviction has managed to take over me, to look back, assess and
change. And it just wouldn’t give me rest just like how the murky flood were
splashed the windows of KFC and shattered the glass door of 711. And then, my
whole being came to rest, my mind filled with satisfaction, while my body - of
renewed strength, looking forward with a fresh sense of hope on the way to my
Changes. There's still water but I walked on - heck, it hadn't been wet
everywhere anyway. After the flood, I
felt this sudden peace. And I yawn. A well-deserved, all-out yawn. I’m ready to
sleep. My pillows embraced me as I lay my jaded body surrendered wholly to His
peace. My eyes were as curtains shut from the visions of this world. I see
hope. Tomorrow will be a new day and I'd be brave to cross another flood with
dead rats floating all over.
That
day, KFC didnt just became the place where I hear priceless wisdom and
take notes of it too keen to apply them in my own life. KFC became the exact same
place where these priceless wisdom actually happened, where the people who work
there live the words you'd only hear in self-help and leadership books. These
are the people who deserve the stage - if only they knew. Tuesday, June 20, 2006
my real princess Blogdrive entry: June 10, 2006
Why do I admire you?
You’ve been a good friend for quite some time already. I had witnessed your ups and downs. I’ve been there when you needed someone to share a quiet moment with. I’ve seen you fall helplessly in love with a wrong man. I was always moved with your silent war that you fought endlessly with everyone who slaps the miserable fate you got yourself into. You very well know how I stood against with what you felt. You very well knew everyone stood against with what you felt. Yet you held on to what you have – foolish genuine love. Though I irk each time you flash that suppressed giggles every time he walked by, I admire you for being so brave to keep a love that could never happen.
Yes, I admired you dear friend.
I was once wore your shoe for seven years. I had the worst and the best days of my life then. That’s why I understood you all along. Believe me, I did. And forgive me for showing earnest rudeness to reiterate my contradiction. I just know how agonizing it is. I saw myself in you years ago.
Forgive me and forgive me not by stepping in your life.
I never knew I did what I did was wrong till that Wednesday night. Your drowsiness and the reign of alcohol in your bloodstream was all you needed to unearth all the pains sulking beneath. Fighting to keep your words straight, you voiced all the guilt that haunted you. I know you never planned to hurt the person I carefully picked for you. I felt how sorry you were on what you finally thought was the realization of your dreams but was haunted by that miserable love you painstakingly tried to get over with. I have to admit, I was upset that you let go of your “sincerest shot to happiness”. I have to admit that I was mad at you for you let yourself be governed with a man who’s too sissy to fight for his love and too self-seeking to let you, someone who loves him in silence, hang on false hopes. I was outraged for the man you’d derelict was not only a man I hold dear but also a man I believed to be the best man there is. He could have been your happiness. He could have been all you wanted and needed. But you wanted more, and you needed less.
It was absurd, yes.
How a princess could yearn for a prince who would build castles in the air but at the same time still longs for a slug who sucked her hopefulness on her journey? You so much wanted to be loved. An exclusive-more-than-the-whole-world-could-give type of love you had familiarized yourself with on your trashy romance novels. Blame the fairytales they say, for you desire a prince charming that simply does not exist. You believed you met him. I so much second your motion. I believed he gave you everything there is to give. Give it back you could not for fear that you end up cut, sliced, and skinned. The image of that slug who made you believe loving and not owning is the greatest feeling in this world haunted your search.
Yourself is the best thing that you have.
And I would always pray for your happiness. Keep what you believe in though I disagree on some of it. You had always been a strong girl. I had always been proud of you dear. And whatever happens I'd always be.
--to be continued—
Dear friend,
I just want you to know that I admire you and will always will for the person that you are. You proved me that I can dream big because I can be big. With your search for your prince charming, you accidentally made me realize that prince charming’s are not all royalties. Their swords are not solely to protect me from anyone who could hurt me, but to shield me from myself too. their faces vary but their utmost sincerity reverberates their kind soul. Lastly, I hope you’re with me as I believe through you that prince charming’s do exist, they’re not perfect but real. Wednesday, June 14, 2006
back to zero Salute. I'm back to school. I still have to fix a lot of stuffs but I know i'd finish this soon enough. I have a different point of view now, added the fact that my disposition in life changed rapidly. I now know what needs to be prioritized. I may have gained a better view of what really life is. I should start working my butt out and stand tall amidst the trials. No more tears. No more love hoolabaloos. I had the realization that my life is not all fancy and all marvin. I have a life to live. He's always part of it, of course. Maybe i'd be more disciplined now. Let him live life the way he wants it to be. That's how lovers are. Being together but letting each other grow within themselves. It would be best for me to focus my energy on my studies. Bless me Oble!
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
booby tube Finally! After 2 months we'll watch a movie! Weeeeee! Ooops! not "a movie" it would be "movies" Uh-huh? Uh-huh!
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Recordable Pen Pinuntahan ko ang isang pokpok para ibigay yung SLR camera na matagal na nyang hinihiram. Pagkatapos ko syang makitang maging retarded kakakwento sa mga bata na syempre pasok ang pangalan ko at pangalan ng taxi namin at tatay ko naisip namin na maghapunan. Ayun! May pera ang pokpok kaya naman umorder na ko ng spaghetti na may chicken at syempre ang garlic stix hindi pwede malimutan. Marami akong nadiskubre nung gabing yun, hindi lang sa kanya, sa mahal ko, kundi mas lalo na sa sarili ko.
pokpok: I'm so inlove pare dax: email ad ko yan pokpok: seryoso. Realization #1: Darating lang talaga sa buhay ng kahit sinong tao yung partner nila sa mundo. Makakapagpasaya sa kanila sa di malamang kadahilanan. Kapag may mga nagkekwento saken ng ganito parang namimiss ko mainlove uli. pokpok: naisip ko na kailangan ko ng magseryoso at magkagirlfriend nung magkakasama tayo ng boylet mo tapos nagtampo sya sayo dax: nainggit ka sa eksenang yun?! pokpok: gaga! naiiyak na nga ko nun eh! sobra! kasi na-touch ako. lalo na nung mukha ka ng basura pero lakad ka pa rin ng lakad kasi hinahanap mo sya. Parang naisip ko gusto ko na magkaroon ng girlfriend na maglalakad ng ganun kalayo pag nagtampo ko. dax: tsaka yung magsusuka ng dugo?? pokpok: medyo. Realization #2: Madalas hindi napapansin ng mahal natin yung effort na binubuhos natin. Balewala man sa mahal natin, pero sa ibang taong nakakakita sa'ten nagiging inspirasyon ito at nakakapagpabago ng buhay nila. Kaya go lang sa sacrifice! May ibang nakakapansin ng lahat - walang sayang. pokpok: dati masama loob namin sa boylet mo lalo na nung nasa peak sya ng pambabae. dax: talagang "peak" huh.. pokpok: wala lang naisip namin na you don't deserve him kahit kaibigan pa namin sya. dax: sya nga kawawa sa'ken eh pokpok: dun ko lang din nalaman na.. mahal ka din ni [toooot -bawal pangalanan]. and [toooot] likes you too. Inisa isa mo ba kami??? dax: ay.. kasalanan ko ba yun!? (malanding tawa) pokpok: ang landi mo bakla Realization #3: Maraming nagmamahal sa bawat tao ng hindi nila nalalaman kaya huwag mag-suicide. dax: ... naniniwala kasi ako na pag hindi ka na nasasaktan sa kahit anong kagaguhan ng mahal mo, matakot ka na, kasi ibig sabihin nun "out" na. hindi mo na sya mahal. pokpok: kaya? dax: ok lang masaktan ka, kasi you'd never know you're alive lest you bleed dba? pokpok: okey. curious lang ako.. nasasaktan ka pa ba sa kanya? dax: isa lang masasabi ko.. baliktad na kami. pokpok: tarantada ka. dax: penge textmate! globe ha! Realization #4: Dumarating ang panahon na kung ano yung mga pinaka-ayaw nating klase ng tao ay nagiging tayo mismo. -the end-
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Pa-tutor naman Oo, turuan mo ko.
Kasi hanggang ngayon humahapdi pa rin ang puso ko. Natatakot pa rin ako.. lalo na ngayon mabubuo na tayo Baka makalimot ka na naman. Isang daliri na lang ang nakakapit sa'ken - pinky pa yun. I have faith in you? Yes. Is it strong? That I don't know. Turuan mo akong mawalan ng takot. Turuan mo kong maging malinaw ang isipan. hindi maghinala. magtiwala. "..SO IBIG SABIHIN PALA NYAN HINDI PA RIN MATATAG PAGKAKAKILALA MO SA'KEN?!" oo, mabuti kang tao.. at mahilig ka sa babae. may main meal at dapat may side dish. Nagbago ka na.. oo. Ilang beses ko na narinig yan at ilang beses din yan nabigo. Kaya nga magpapatutor ako sa'yo. pano ba itatapon na lang yung sakit na nararamdaman ko. may kailangan bang sleeping pills para hindi na bumalik ang bangungut pagod na ko magsimula uli. hindi ko na rin alam kung saan magsisimula kung sakali. Kailangan ko talaga ng tutorial mo. Ikaw lang, walang kasamang side dish. Friday, May 19, 2006
Careless Whisper This happened two days ago. I lost my wallet just after I called babybooboo and told him i'll go to his office. Imagine that I was using a payphone and my bag was slinged on my shoulder and was slid under my armpit. Just as I dropped the phone I saw my bag wide slightly opened without my wallet. Good grief!
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